I feel something inside of me. stirring. maybe its just that time of the month...or gas...its weird...i feel weird...
Maybe its all that shit breaking down inside of me after starting THE DIET. thats right, ive just started. but better late than never, i guess. And for some reason I have this great feeling that its gonna work. But then theres this fleeting noise in the back of my head saying that its not. hmm
maybe i should post like a before picture or something, just to be that obnoxious. but then again, this whole ordeal is pretty obnoxious; me giving non existent readers an update on my journey to skinnydom.. I feel pretty shitty about it to be honest. its like it really shouldn't have to get to this point or something. i feel pathetic.
yet im still typing...hmmm.
But i have been making progress in terms of myself lately. figuring things out about myself that ive kind of been in the dark with for a while. I just hope when the actual test comes of putting everything ive learned into action, I pass.
I suppose since this summer has been exponentially shite I want to say I came out of it with some type of good. And that good will be a new personality along with a nice skinny body. a changed lez.
I just have to keep pushing. I have to put in some effort if im gonna get results. its just really hard. im making it really hard for myself. because i tend to do that alottttt. i am my own worst enemy.
"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward,
sometimes to death, but always to victory."
Give me strength people (which is no one), give me strength.
oh, and i really like the cure. the band, i mean.
dream a good dream,
lez
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